GOD’S CALLING

Years of struggles. Heartbreaks. Bad decisions like thunderstorms chased by lightning, echoed over and over again in my life. Sick and tired of hitting my head against walls, one day I asked why? Why won’t it stop? Why can’t I just be done? Why must I continue in this world with so much pain? There was no answer. So I asked, what? What do You want? What do You want from me? I was asking God this, but I heard nothing…nothing…and nothing for months. I gave up. I was done physically, emotionally, and mentally. I was done.

I walked around in a semiconscious state for months. I remember seeing the puzzled looks being passed between colleagues, friends, and family. On one occasion, I actually heard my brother asking his niece (my daughter) what was wrong with me. I heard and saw them but did not react. Then, one day in July while playing a silly game on my phone and actually trying to figure out ways to cheat at it, I heard “I am Holy! I called you to holiness! I called you to be set apart!”

I heard this in my body. I heard it, or as close to it as I’m able to put in human words, in my spirit. It reverberated in every cell of my soul. I cannot explain it any further…not really…and I do not think I have to. What I can explain is this: in that single instance I felt the convergence of my first experience with The Holy Spirit at 12 years old (when I was baptized with the evidence of speaking in tongues) and this call to a position in the kingdom of Jehovah God, for which I am still in training.

It is an ongoing process! One that requires a stripping away of so many different things, people, places, mindsets, behaviors, etc. that, if I were to list them, this would be much too long. Now, I’d like to brag and say that I’ve been holding on, or walking the path, or all of those things we say to sound super saved (and super spiritual) but the truth is; all I did was respond. I immediately deleted the game, I repented, and waited for “next step”.

Today, I continue to train and learn to follow. Yes, I fail and recover but then, I begin again. I do so with great fear and trembling. My prayer each day is that Jehovah God be magnified by, in, through, over, under, and around all that I was, all that I am, and all that I will be. In Jesus Name and by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Quick question, have you responded to your call?

Trust

I once heard a pastor say that trust in a marriage is like having a dining room table filled with all the things each other has done in life that, if exposed to the world, could destroy either husband or wife. And then consciously deciding to leave it uncovered to each other every day! That is TRUST. Trust was the character that I didn’t know I was missing but needed the most…until I found it.

“I Trust you” is so much more powerful than “I love you”. In my lifetime, I’ve learned the hard way that you can love a person and not trust them at all!!! It took me some time, however, to learn that you cannot trust a person and not love them. That is not to say that love (although we use it so flippantly today) is without power. In fact, usually when we say love, what we really mean is attraction, infatuation, or lust. It takes a whole lot of living, and failing, and learning, to fully understand that, love without respect is a ticking time bomb that leads to all kinds of death. However; love, built on the foundation of respect and trust, can never be destroyed!

Today, I not only strive to be more trustworthy in my personal relationship but in all my other relationships as well. Each day, I pray for discernment so that I am more frequently in the company of those I can trust. So, in your pursuit of happiness, look for the one you can trust. And, your respect for that rare character, will lead you to the most beautiful love ever.🙏🏽

Dark Days

Sometimes we die, not from the initial blast of a love one’s betrayal but, from the little shrapnel that takes its time moving through our bodies. Moving slowly, as we struggle to cope with the trauma of that wound. Moving purposefully, in-spite of the efforts we make to start over, pick up the pieces, and begin again. And moving painfully; even as all of those watching the “train wreck” of your life begin to lose interest at signs of your recovery. It moves until it reaches the heart. To add insult to injury; the cause of that death is, more often than not, misdiagnosed. Suicide? No, just the effect of an untreated wound.

At the Name of Jesus

So, every once in a while, I hear something that my spirit vehemently rejects. Be it something that, I believe, contradicts the Word of God or a statement that is just demonically twisted/askew: whenever I sense this within my spirit I am tasked to go and study the Word of Jehovah God. After I’ve prayed, I “study to show myself approved unto God.” Today was one of those times: I heard something which led me to pray and study.

I was watching a movie, an African movie, about spiritual bondage. In this movie, the man playing the role of a Lucifer-like character challenged the pastor in his church. The pastor was rebuking him using the Name of Jesus saying “at the name of Jesus every knee shall bow”. Well, this satan-like character “corrected” the pastor saying he was mis-quoting the verse. (Yes, the enemy does know the scriptures but, as he did in the Garden of Eden, and when he tried to tempt our Lord Jesus, satan is also very fond of twisting God’s Word. So, be aware.)

The satan-like character told the pastor that the verse actually states “that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow…not shall now.” This demon goes on to define the word should vs shall. Should meaning there is a choice vs shall which eliminates choice. When I heard that, my initial reaction was okay, what is the enemy trying to do here? The answer? What he’s always done: twist The Word of Jehovah God for his own use.

My study began in Philippians Chapter two in the KJV and then on to several other versions of The Bible. King James says: “…That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” However, that is not all it says. You see, this verse could be misunderstood if taken out of context. So, let’s put it back in context.

The writer Paul was admonishing the church in Phillipa to practice humility. As he gave them examples of how humility should play out in their lives, Paul ended the topic by giving The Perfect example of humility: Jesus. Paul explained how Jesus perfected His humility even unto death. Paul explains that our Lord Jesus personified humility with the knowledge that God the Father would then place EVERYTHING under His feet. So, because our Lord Jesus did fulfill the requirements of perfect humility, Jehovah God the Father did place EVERYTHING under the feet of Jesus.

This is what we can stand on: the call was for the perfect sacrifice (JESUS) to empty Himself, and be completely humble, humble unto death…even the death of the cross. The Bible says that He despised its shame but, He answered the call and fulfilled the task. Therefore, all that should now shall…this means, they will. So yes, At The Name of Jesus, every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess that JESUS CHRIST IS LORD to the glory of JEHOVAH GOD our Father!!!!!!!

Philippians 2:3-11 AMP

“Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit [through factional motives, or strife], but with [an attitude of] humility [being neither arrogant nor self-righteous], regard others as more important than yourselves. Do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others. Have this same attitude in yourselves which was in Christ Jesus [look to Him as your example in selfless humility], who, although He existed in the form and unchanging essence of God [as One with Him, possessing the fullness of all the divine attributes—the entire nature of deity], did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped or asserted [as if He did not already possess it, or was afraid of losing it]; but emptied Himself [without renouncing or diminishing His deity, but only temporarily giving up the outward expression of divine equality and His rightful dignity] by assuming the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men [He became completely human but was without sin, being fully God and fully man]. After He was found in [terms of His] outward appearance as a man [for a divinely-appointed time], He humbled Himself [still further] by becoming obedient [to the Father] to the point of death, even death on a cross. For this reason also [because He obeyed and so completely humbled Himself], God has highly exalted Him and bestowed on Him the name which is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus EVERY KNEE SHALL BOW [in submission], of those who are in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and that every tongue will confess and openly acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord (sovereign God), to the glory of God the Father.”

Philippians 2:3-11 KJV

“Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves. Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others. Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men: And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross. Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name: That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.”

This Christian Walk

Wow! The Holy Spirit of Jehovah God is awesome! For about 3 years or so now, I’ve sought His leading, guidance, reprimands, refiner’s fire, friendship, mentoring, training, and so much more. He never ceases to amaze me!!! This morning, He laid the word “reputation” on my heart and, because I am still a work in process, my mind immediately went to thinking ”Yayyyyyyyyyyy, God is finally ready to correct, fix, improve, etc. my reputation!” I can admit that there was a high level of glee in me as I assumed that this was the reason for The Comforter’s prompting this morning. Well, not so. No, it was to be another lesson in humility…but not just your common humbleness…this one is on a much higher level. This humility, when practiced faithfully, leads to inner peace and a closer walk with Elohim. Full disclosure? It comes at a cost but the benefits are worthy of the pain…

So, as I do frequently, I began studying The Word(Bible), the Internet, and my Christian apps for references of Jehovah God fixing the reputations of His children. But, the passages and blogs and commentaries I kept finding did not match what I had in mind. Finally, I landed on the one that The Holy Spirit had designed just for me!😊 Guess what? It focused on how to overcome shame and a ruined reputation by repenting, soul searching, praying, and love. What??? Yep!

Truthfully, I didn’t want to keep reading it but I could not stop. I read the whole thing with tears streaming down my face and, when I was done, I repented, I did some soul searching, I prayed, and I made a resolve to love in spite of any and everything. Please understand that I am only able to do this daily by The Holy Spirit’s power…without Him, without Jehovah God, I can do nothing.

This Christian walk that we are on is so much more about us and Jehovah God than it is about us and the world. Yes, we are to be salt and light to the world. But we can only be those things, authentically, when our walk with Jehovah God is on point!!! I’m adding a link to the blog below for you…just in case The Holy Spirit designed it for you as well.😊🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/my-reputation-is-ruined

Seed Time Harvest

Everything has a seed! That is how The Creator set it up. That is how Elohim could rest on the 7th. Every created thing has the ability to replicate! Wait. What? Everything? Yes!

Before Jehovah, nothing existed. The very world we see, hear, feel, touch, taste, and (for some) sense, was framed by the unadulterated Word of Elohim. We are because He spoke…and, made in His image, our words are seeds. Everything has a seed!

“By faith [that is, with an inherent trust and enduring confidence in the power, wisdom and goodness of God] we understand that the worlds (universe, ages) were framed and created [formed, put in order, and equipped for their intended purpose] by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things which are visible.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭11:3‬ ‭AMP‬‬


https://www.bible.com/1588/heb.11.3.amp

The Runner

Ask anyone who knows me and they’ll tell you that I am a runner. I’ve always been. I realized pretty early on in my youth that I was different and intense. So, to shield the people around me, people I know and love, I learned how to run. For so many years I tried to run from the intensity of me. I created a version of me that, I thought, was more palpable than the real me. I so perfected this farce that people only got to know the runner. Very few people got to see the real me. And the intensity of that truth hurt so badly that I started trying to figure out a way to run from it…to run from the pain.

The crazy thing about running is this: no one can outrun his or her pain. We all, every single one of us, receives a measure of pain in our lives. And, as depressing as that sounds, there is an upside. You see, pain has a twin sister and the two always travel together. It is the wisdom of Elohim.Her name is joy. Wherever there is great pain, you will always find joy hanging around as well. Here’s the catch, you must make a conscious effort to find joy. So, today, I challenge you to find your joy. For those of us in Christ, our joy is always joy unspeakable and full of glory. 🙏🏽

1 Peter 1:8 KJV

Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:”

The Path to Destiny

Sometimes, when God is ready to place you on the path of destiny, He hides you in a basket and places you in a river infested with crocodiles. God is sovereign and He knows that you will not be eaten…He’s already sent someone with royal blood to save you. Whatever happens, trust God and don’t give up: you are as safe as little Moses was, floating on the river Nile!!!!

Lest we be Ignorant of the devil’s wiles…

My sisters, we cannot continue to kill our men with thoughts, words, and deeds but then complain to God, family, friends, and all who will listen that “all the good ones are taken!”  No, they are not.  They are wounded, bruised, battered, and bewildered.  They are around us everyday but we cannot see them because they’ve put up walls to protect themselves…from us!

What are we doing?  How did we get here?  Why did we get here?  I’ll tell you why:  we have a real enemy.  And one of his tried and true weapons is to manipulate situations and circumstances ,in just the right way, so that we become the bullets in his gun.

But Elohim is God and beside Him there is NO OTHER!  Because He is, we will never be consumed!  He is faithful and true.  He is Holy…this means He is one with Himself.  He is integrity!  There is no shadow of Turing in Him.  He is calling us to open our eyes now!  See what the enemy is trying to do through us and resist him!

How do we do that? Submit to God, receive His cleansing forgiveness, and rise up in your power.  But first, my fellow daughters of Zion, let’s repent.  Let us do so collectively! It is this act of humility that will give Jehovah God a platform upon which He can restore our men.  Listen, the very same weapon that the enemy is using to destroy our men is the one that God will use to restore them: us!

Women of God, get up and walk in your power.  Your power is your gift, your purpose, and, your destiny.  Intercessors, storm heaven with requests for help and declare the release of every soul in our care personally, communally, and spiritually.  Worshippers, arise and create an atmosphere so dense with praise to Jehovah that His glory fills the earth! Kingdom men and women, endowed with the fivefold ministry gifts, stand up and proclaim the Word of our King!  The Kingdom of Elohim is here! God bless you.

“Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.”

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭6:11‬ ‭KJV‬‬

https://www.bible.com/1/eph.6.11.kjv